You Vs You

You vs You

               I’m sensitive. I’m sweet. I’m a burden. I’m too much to handle. I’m not lovable. I’m broken. I’m humble. I’m beautiful. I’m intelligent. I’m not black enough. I’m too calm. I’m not white enough. I’m just enough. I’m too innocent. I’m too assertive. I’m too loud. I’m too quiet. I’m too serious. I’m goofy. I’m not enough at all. I’m too hard to understand. I’m asking for too much. I’m not giving enough. I’m human. I make mistakes sometimes. I’m being too nice and considerate. I’m not cultured. I’m too open-minded. I’m not easy to deal with. I’m not worthy. I’m worth so much more than this.

I’m worth so much more than this. Telling myself these negative things daily, that try to overturn the good things. Funny how I’m looking at these opiniated statements, knowing deep down that the negatives are not true. I automatically believed these things without self-reflection and they, overtime, became the inner voice that guides me and tries to mentor me from the limited ways that have surfaced off and on thoroughly throughout my existence so far. I deserve better and want better. We need to detox our negative energy. We are holding onto things that have been ready to stay behind. We’ve been seeing all the signs; we need to just do it, f*cking let go, rebrand our thinking.

Also, it looks like we need to be more loving to ourselves. Be more open to more possibilities of receiving love from others and block off the negative ones that like to creep up, disguised as a dream that we want to live in. We need to treat our inner child and teen better. Just because we’re adults, doesn’t mean they vanished and left. We need to treat our inner voice and dialogue better. This voice helps us make decisions and shapes our look on the outside world around us. We need to praise ourselves for at least trying and hold compassion for human errors, instead of annoyance, or frustration, or self-destruction.

This can’t be too hard to do, right?  We can do it even with the limited beliefs echoing in our minds, right? Even with the subconscious unwillingness or hesitancy to change as it’s not familiar enough? Even with the uncertainties that we may or may not like the other side of this journey? Even when it may not be thrilling and/or desire satisfying at all checkpoints? It takes time to re-route the roads of the brain, but I think it can be done. Sometimes it may need to be done. Are you willing to become the person that you were lovingly supposed to be, in the first place? Even if it may cost you your old ways and life habits?

Let’s do it! I’m scared, frightened, nervous, and actually shaking on the inside. But I feel like I can do it. Let’s heal our inner voice, the one that was shaped for us. The one that guides us spiritually, mentally, emotionally, etc. The one that helps us either stay on the good side of life, the bad side of life, or thrives in both spectrums, keeping both sides in healthy harmony. Let’s make it our own voice.  It’s doable. It’s needed for growth to happen. It’s worth it.  We’re worth it. We’re worth it? Yes, we’re worth it.